Description
"A must-read for anyone on the path of awakening." -Roshi Joan Halifax
A raw and revelatory spiritual memoir that chronicles a woman's quest for love, healing, and awakening across multiple continents.
From the emotional barrenness of a postwar German childhood to the false promise of guru culture, the ecstasy of mystical experience, and the crucible of human intimacy, Annette Knopp's unflinchingly honest account illuminates both the pitfalls and rewards of the spiritual path and her work as a teacher assisting others in navigating the path to wholeness.
Struggling with depression and lack of meaning prompts the author to leave her fiancéeacute; and successful career in Spain to travel to the Osho ashram in Pune. Her journey takes her further to the Dalai Lama in Northern India, the nightclubs and Shinto shrines in Japan, facing a female Buddha in New Zealand, working nightshifts in an opal mine in Australia's outback, diving into somatic therapy and Tibetan Buddhism in Amsterdam, shamanism in Peru, teaching in the US, until the opening of a retreat center with her husband in Costa Rica.
Annette experiences profound shifts of spiritual awakening and the shattering of illusions in her encounters with various teachers and traditions. Her path takes a dark turn when she is sexually assaulted by a trusted spiritual mentor, plunging her into a crisis of faith and a deep descent into unresolved trauma. With unflinching honesty and vulnerability, she illuminates the complexities of the teacher-student relationship, the dangers of spiritual bypassing, and the importance of personal empowerment and discernment on the spiritual path. Sharing her healing and integration process, Knopp weaves insights from Eastern contemplative traditions, Western psychology, earth-based wisdom practices, and somatic approaches to trauma resolution.
Author: Annette Knopp
Publisher: Monkfish Book Publishing
Published: 10/28/2025
Pages: 290
Binding Type: Paperback
Weight: 0.87lbs
Size: 9.00h x 6.00w x 0.66d
ISBN13: 9781958972977
ISBN10: 1958972975
BISAC Categories:
- Biography & Autobiography | Memoirs
- Body, Mind & Spirit | Healing | Prayer & Spiritual
- Body, Mind & Spirit | Inspiration & Personal Growth
About the Author
Annette Knopp is a meditation teacher, somatic counselor, and nature mystic who favors an integrative approach to living in wakeful and embodied connection. For twenty years she has mentored clients on their unique journeys of healing and awakening. She spent nine years living in India, Japan, Australia, and the Netherlands before moving to the US on a religious worker visa. In 2009 Annette and her husband Stephan opened the Blue Spirit Retreat Center in Nosara, Costa Rica. Today she divides her time between Costa Rica and Woodstock, New York.
In the US, she is often teaching at the Upaya Zen Center and Omega Institute in Rhinebeck.